God is Cool

It has only been a two and a half years since God found me in New York City. Me, a needle in a haystack must have been a real pain in the ass. My family were communists so things like God and religion were not only discouraged but despised. I had never read a bible, been to church talked to a priest and I was already pushing forty. For me God was a last ditch effort. Everything in my life had been going wrong to worse to having been arrested. So, one day I walked into a church. Actually the day I chose to walk into a church was the Blessing of the Animals which my neighbour Fran had told me about. Being a big animal lover I went with my perfectly wonderful little dog Henry.

From that day on I've been attending a Church on 74th and York called the Epiphany. I even got baptized there and confirmed. There is no question in my mind that God exists . I feel him . God has shown me to leve the life I deserve . Love the moment, love the seconds and has taken the great burden of the big picture off my head. No longer do I have to worry about what I can't control or try to control what I can't. I'm a micro manager now. I micro manage my behaviour, my decisions, I apologize, fix what I can fix ,and try to deal with people pure of heart.

I feel I got pretty lucky. I didn't have a family but God decided to be my family and with him came Jesus, a slew of really cool Saints, an amazing congregation of church members and most importantly the definitive melody inside my heart that strums a note of constant love and determination for myself and others.

Don't get me wrong. I did not find God and all of a suddenly things went from bad to great. It's been slow but it's been constant and I have made changes in myself that are starting to ripple positively around me. The best thing is I'd still learning about this God every moment in my life. For me God's no mystery. He exists. The mystery is how he manages to manage every single living and breathing soul life here on earth? And I guess ...that's simply God' s business.